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Everything expires I suppose
Every flower will decompose
You and your friends are getting close
New ideas and newer clothes
I will live like a suicide
So I am not afraid to die
I will live like a suicide
So I am not afraid to die
Claim you are here to make a change
just lack of strange and lack of range
Hippies wearing leather and spikes
Progress turn dogmatic lies
Living and dying all the time
Living and dying to make a dime
Living and dying all the time
Living and dying to make a dime
We dehumanize ourselves
Only Showing our better selves
Punk rock in the name of youth
just an aesthetic elitist group
I am so tired of being tired
Never hired but already Fired
I am so tired of being tired
Never worked but already Retired
Don’t want to be their ticket buyer
Don’t want to be their subscriber
They don’t care about me at all
As long as their numbers do not fall
All your greatest wisest words
Just memes that you have never heard
All you jokers and columbines
Dump your guns and get a spine
best revenge for your enemy
Is to be as best as you can be
They can beat and crush your skull
But what’s inside is not their fault
I don't get the things you do
But I don’t mind coz I love you
Nothing is free and no one is free
But I have you and you have me
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The world is a crowded place
Better put on a happy face
The world is a massive grave
Will it ever run out of space
The world is a real estate
Everything put on a display
The world is a life-sized website
Wherever I look, it's always in my sight
The world is a beautiful landscape
One that i just can't escape
The world is a permanent jail
Some enjoy some cry for help
Taj mahal and Eiffel tower
I see them thru an one-way mirror
The statue of liberty And The great wall
I have a crystal ball to fit them all
All of their joy and all of their sorrow
I feel them through my one-way window
The world is an experiment
But I never gave any consent
The world is a social reference
And all we do is read facial expressions
The world is not my sandbox
Whatever happens is up to the boss
I feel the world coming to an end
But I still act like it's another trend
I drown myself in the bluish glow
And the world is just a TV show
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after thoughts
after births
you asked me how i
you asked me how i
look alike
through the door
boy or a girl
to be ignored
mouths made of fangs
fangs made of friends
friends made of fathers
fathers made of mongrels
look alike
to be described
through the wall
you asked me twice
a boy held between
his forms dictated to him
in guts in wombs
born with
The means to die
the longest hour
Of the night
mouths made of fangs
fangs made of friends
friends made of fathers
fathers made of mongrels
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I've been to many places
I've seen so many races
I've heard so many cases
So many noises
So little traces
I know so many voices
I had so many faces
I have so little choices
I feel so very useless
So very clueless
So very careless
So very worthless
So very wordless
So young
So wrong
So young
So undone
So young
So unsung
So young
So long
So long
So long
So long
So long
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My little bird
Won't you take a rest here
You must have been so tired
Flying from window sills to windowsills
Why don't you stay a little longer on this one
Tell me about your day
The people you met
The stories you kept
You know me, I am not going anywhere
I am afraid i can't
But hey maybe you can help me to
Forget about all of that
My little bird
Tell me about
The color of the oceans
Or the height of the mountains
I'd like to know
Will this life ever be
only as big
as this room and the tales you tell
My little bird
You know how I wish
To leap thru this window
And join you in the sky
But I am stuck here forever
in this tower
Forgot the time
Forgot if I ever
want to or how to get out
My little bird
I know you don't belong to me
But sometimes I want to lock you in a cage
So you will only sing to me
Like how I will only sing to you
But no, I never will
Because
That would make you just like
Me
And there is already plenty like me
All in their towers
All waiting for you
But please just stay a little longer
Come back
Be here
My little bird
I can't help but feel
You are my only friend
Tho I bet that's what
Everybody says
My little bird
Will you shed a tear
The more I repay
Your kindness, the more I am in debt
What would I do
when
If you are gone
I will be keep singing this song
Hoping that you are fine
Hoping that one day
you will be mine
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who am i to love
who i see in myself
in the mirror outlined
plastic and stained by time
he’s a form people stop
by to place their words into
like a house made of rooms
painted different shades of blue
he was she said
like somethings he shouldn’t have said
caused by
off like
words in words come clear by night
cold as
glum like
like a blue dog
like a blue dog
like a
who am i to speak
something uttered not said
blue like when the breath
is caught before the head
conversations in his bed
days driven through the chest
his face she said
were the words
he’d never meant
lay by me
lay by me
stay like a
walk as a
he was she said
like somethings he shouldn’t have said
caused by
off like
words in words come clear by night
cold as
glum like
like a blue dog
like a blue dog
like a
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animals with human teeth
track marks vein of love
rub the dirt in your gums underneath the tooth colored fence
all of us
all at once
lines made of ink and spit
rake your nails to a pit
cry
and they'll all be unfound
mouth words of help
when you drown
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Brick by brick
Day by day
I am building a castle
For me to play
Brick by brick
Day by day
I am building a castle
So go away
Brick by brick
Day by day
I am building a castle
Where I will be safe
Brick by brick
Day by day
I am building a castle
Forever I will stay
I am the lone king in the city
But the crown I wear can be so heavy
I am the vampire right next door
Hiding from bodies though I’d like some more
I said to myself
I can leave whenever I please
But I think my sincerity
threw away the key
I don’t need to learn how to barter/bother
As long as I have learnt how to suffer/endure
My soul is covered with dust
My heart is filled with rust
My desire is fueled by lust
My words are lack of trust
Oh Isn’t this so lovely
Coz everything’s just as I planned
My playground
My solitary
My sanctum
My comfort zone
Nothing comes in, nothing goes out
The vampire needs some vitality
His blood is cold and his heartbeat is low
The sun under the ceiling looks so warm and bright
But it won't give me life,
But it won't make me feel alive
Come break the locks
Come shatter the walls
With love
With kindness
With patience
With care / courage
Get me out of this room
Get me out of this cell
I have been here for too long
I have locked myself away for too long
I don't want to hide anymore
But I know
It will be hard
And There will be scars
But if I don't go now
I might never will
Turn off the lights
Turn off the snooze
Open the curtains
Open the door
Get out of your bed
Get out of your shell
Join the rest
Join us
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To Kit & Sara, the two who kept me alive during the year of 2020.
released December 31, 2022
